Betrayal ... The Feeling of Being Broken

People lie … people backstab … people gossip … people show off their split personality ability...people suck up … this seems familiar...did I experienced it somewhere…someday...?

betray somebody: to do or say something harmful to somebody after pretending to be a friend

The mere word, "betrayal," evokes enormous feelings. It’s one thing to be disappointed, saddened, and unhappy; but it’s altogether another to feel BETRAYED. …Lied to in a way that feels humiliating. Defiled by someone whom you trusted; someone in whom you placed your belief, your hopes, perhaps your love.

I Don’t Understand

I don’t understand
Why people lie
Why a promise means nothing
Why the truth hurts

But most of all
Why people back-stab,
Why we hate,
Why we pretend to be what we are not.
What I understand most is
Why I tell the truth,
Why I never lie,
Why I am who I am

-- KW

Was reading this malay novel --- that took "ages" for me to complete reading Anyway, what I would like to share is the content that wrote about betrayal ... backstabbing

“Sebagai manusia kita selalunya tidak sedar, perkataan yang keluar dari mulut kita apabila mengata seseorang itu akan mendatangkan mudharat yang amat teruk pada orang yang kita kata. Walau kita tidak menganggap ianya perkara besar kerana percakapan biasa. Namun kita tidak sedar kata-kata kita itu membunuh seluruh kehidupan orang yang kita kata”
… Norhayati Berahim

Do you take revenge on these betrayals? My dad said … bila orang mengata kita, makin bertambahlah pahala kita. Ketika nanti orang yang memfitnahkan akan memberhentikan fitnah, kita tidak rugi apa2 . Jadi fitnah itu kita biarkan kerana Allah sentiasa benar dan akan menunjukan kebenaran pada orang yang benar…

Gosh … really hurts … I chose not to reprimand nor defend myself … as I believe if I did that they will try to surface the worst of me … Alhamdulillah, kebenaran menyebelahi kita ... at least for this one
Trust is a gift. If you gave and it was not well and honestly received – YOU have no blame.

There are many times when one can experience betrayal ... by parents … by a lover … by society … by your body … by a friend … of self

... another betrayal … how I have to struggle with a feeling of having been betrayed … the shock … denial … anger … extreme hurt/sadness …. especially when the betrayal is by a friend --- whom I respect 'cos of being elderly,being the person that I sought to lend a shoulder,returning a favor when needed one